FATTY ACID ACCUMULATION!

oh no, not good! in fact, very bad! i think i never stop eating since the day i left Qatar. things i do in my holidays are just eat, sleep, online, hanging out. no sport at all, no fat burning. and yes, things you ate will eventually betrays you by showing themselves on the face and the belly. I felt guiltier than i ever had. Look like i'm gonna starve myself while i'm in Aussie, not only to loss weight, also to prevent eating down the H1N1 virus!

wednesday I went to get a new hairdo, i curled it again, even more curly than before.

Can you see it now? Do you know what i mean? Look at my face, omg, it is so fucking ROUND! uff, and my hands and my fingers too! what the fuck man!

but hey, the book, The Host, is quite nice, just finished it today. I love it.

Don't jump, don't scream, don't laugh when you look at the photo below. I was planning not to post it up but i don't think it is fair for my loyal followers. *sighed*

The way my hair turned out wasn't really what i expected, but what had been done is done, it can't be undo.

This morning colin was trying to update his ipod using my laptop. instead, he found out that there is a trojan horse hiding in my itune. What the fuck! I did a system restore, it failed to get rid the horse. so i used AVG to do a system scan and yes, it worked. thanks to antivirus.

Argh, i got a running nose. i think the chance of me getting quarantine this time is doubled, to make myself feel worse, tripled. And due to the seriously polluted air, my eyes get watery very easily these days and i can't wear my pretty contact lenses! argh, i feel like i wanna go back to qatar. I was healthy over there!

my awesome life

Hmm, let's see.

I went to a church dinner, well not really, i was begged to take care of the kids. Those kids were like angels but demonic. lol. i spent too much time hunting them down and i didn't ate much.

anyway, the most delightful thing of the day was that i got my nails painted by professional nail artist. aha.

sorry for the bad photo quality.

The one about dinner at Marco Polo Restaurant

Hilda's younger sister, Megan

Colin is Hilda's 3rd Lover.

I'm the First!

My belated birthday celebration with my ex classmates!

Did it again & I'm sorry

As you can see, the talk last night didn't went well. Actually it did went well but i was the one who screwed it up again. I realised that i should stop lying to Paul. I went out with Paul because i wanted to use him to get over someone who i really really have feelings for. And yeah, we brokeup. I know it is better to end now rather than delaying it. At a very moment there, i almost wanted to swear to God that for the rest of my life, i will not involve in any relationship with any guy anymore and just flirt and do one night stand. Fuck it, i hate being a heartbreaker but i just can't help doing it again and again and again. go fuck yourself Cathy Ng, what a heartless heartbreaker!

To him who loved me, I know you will never forgive me for what i had done but i am really sorry.
I knew this gonna happen and i should not had allowed it to begin in the first place.
Loneliness took over me and now it had caused you so much pain.
There is nothing left we can do, so let's just move on with our life.
From your last text message, you are going back to your night life, smoking and drinking.
I thought you said you regretted for doing all those bad stuffs in the past years.

But you went back to them because i am no longer your gf?
When you don't even love yourself, how can you expect anyone else to love you.
Looked like you failed to grow any mature throughout these time.
I'll not involve in your life anymore so I hope you'll enjoy it.

is it wrong for me to choose the guy who loves me instead of the guy i love?

I will hurt the guy if i go for the guy who loves me.

I will hurt myself if i go for the guy i love.

I was being selfish and protective so i went for Paul. He was the innocent one.

Next time i will take the risk of getting myself heartbroken instead of breaking someone's heart.

I had enough of being a heartbreaker. It's time to break my own heart and feel the pain.

If this is the only way to make myself feel less guilty.

And please anyone, slap me in my face when you think i'm gonna repeat the history again.

had fun but kinda messed up a bit

The day started off at around 9.30am, supposed to be 8am but due to certain reasons, Hilda and i woke up late. Oh yeah, i sleptover at her house! weeee. Last night she was busy online, i just sat at the bed, doing manicure for myself.




So we went to breakfast at around 10am, then we went to my house at around 1pm and we decided to go to shabukun (the japanese restaurant) but unfortunately it doesn't open during the day time. So we went to Riverfront Restaurant.

Here are some photos of us~

Hilda is leaving this saturday to Kuala Lumpur to further her study. She is a Hello Kitty freak and she used to be a Patrick freak too, and i think she still is.

She gave me the tiny one so i'll remember her everytime i look at the tiny patrick. How cute and lovely! She reminded me of Celsy's Spongebob.

At night, i have a ex classmates gathering, well, they said it was to celebrate my and another 2 friends' birthday. After dinner, we went to Pink Corner (It is a Karaoke and people smokes in there. I smelled like a cigg when i left there, I swear i'll never step into those kind of places ever!) Obviously, it was fun to hang out with all my friends, they were singing, we were taking photos and there were 2 cakes! I'll upload the photos whenever i get my hand on them. AND AND AND, Ruhana, thanks for your present. for those who dont know, it was a Bra. haha, a nice sexy red bra.

But Paul wasn't very happy about it. He wasn't very happy for the past 3 days because i was texting and talking and going out with guys and especially tonight, one of my ex classmates was my ex bf, so yeah. I went home by 11pm and I decided to have a talk with Paul. I'm really not sure if the talk went alright or went wrong because i think i'm hurting him with what i said but what i said to him is because i don't want to lose him. Relationship is so complicated.

I'm not gonna boring you with my relationship problems. So good night and sleep tide.

for the photos with url, i took them from Hilda's blog and she always put url on her photos.

happy 18th birthday to me

wow, it had been 18 years since i had been waiting for yesterday!

*i used a cheesecake as a substitute since my mum doesnt want to buy a proper cake for me*

*2 candles instead of 18, haha!*

*my wife, Hilda Teo, thanks for celebrating my 18th birthday with me. Love you with all my heart.*

p.s. thanks to ah yao too, she and hilda got me a really pretty present. Hush Puppies Undies! (L sizes, i didnt know i hav such a big hips -38 inches)

p.s. also not forget those who sent birthday wishes to me over the phone, through the texts, msn and facebook. thanks for remembered my birthday~

p.s. cheers to those who had given their presents to me weeks ago. Thanks again. Love you all too! I shall never forget you all!

p.s. to paul, thanks for waking me up in the midnight twice, just to say happy birthday to me and gave me a big kiss through the phone.

Today is one great day!

today i had hell lot of fun.

firstly, had breakfast with my two best buddies! damn, i still can't believe that after waiting for so long, i'm really next to them, having breakfast together!

secondly, met with paul. a little bit awkward for about 5 seconds. after lunch, 5 of us (hilda, yao & her bf, me & paul), we went to beach and chilled and then hung out at my place! my mum recognized paul straight away, but she didn't say anything, until now. hahaha.

Went out again to drop yao & her bf, paul brought me to beach and we sat and talked. dang! forgot to take photo with him.

well, i'm still not sure what's the plan for tonight. I'm stuck, i want to go to Shabukun (a Japanese restaurant) but i have to go to church meeting 'coz my mum wants me to!

btw, bought new contact lenses!

new update! i asked my mum about shabukun when everyone is having dinner, and guess what! my grandma actually supports me so my mum has to let me go! MUAHAHAHAHAHA!

thanks grandma! and this is one of the reason why im such a grandma-person!

Bintulu, Lovely hometown~

after such a long and tiring journey, at last i'm here, in my lovely bedroom. haha~

oh yeah, there are something i need to share with you guys!

mine

colin's

my cousin, Isaac's

These are the Japanese Ice Cream. They are pretty and they are lovely!

*taken in Singapore*

oh, and the for the previous blog... TADA!

More photos are coming up! Stay Tune~

just before i leave SIngapore (unrated)

OMG cathy ng! unrated blog? cathy going nude? OMGOMGOMGOMG!


HAHAHAHH! hell no!


Actually i went for lingerie shopping! damn, the lingerie in Singapore is so much better than those in Qatar. and holy crap, i thought i only gain fat around my belly, but then 75B no longer fit me, had to go for 80B. well, im actually kinda proud of it!

i was thinking of upload the pretty photo of the colourful bra i bought but then i think someone will be furious if i do. you know who im talking about!

but if you are really curious about the pretty photo, just leave your comment and i will reconsider about it!

a little bit about singapore trip

took some photo and i always believe photo tells story. i will leave you guys with the photo!


We were not allowed to take photo of the food but i dont care!

Oh yeah, i took this long time ago but i kept on forgetting to upload it. Be my guest to spot the mistake!

I will take more photos so be curious!

dear blog.

heyyy. Im in the wonder land of Singapore. reached here yesterdaayy. was really tired and sleepy, i thought im jet-lagging, but not really. i stil slept at 10.30pm (singapore time) and woke up at 7.30am.

hmm. not much to blog aboutt. well, i updated my status in facebook everydayy. so yeah. bye ya!

Packing n Panicking

In contrast to Roza's tidy room, mine, is a mess, as if a bomb just exploded in my room. I'm not kidding nor exaggerating. Here's the evidence.

It was more messy 2 days ago, coz some of my stuffs already packed into my lugages. these are the leftover and i don't know how on earth i'm gonna pack them. I wish i have Doraemon so i make everything small! hahaah!

I have no idea how and where i am gonna sleep tonight! Also, i have no idea why i posted this embarrassing photo here, but its just something of mine that i would love to share with everyone. LOL.

*the messiness showed i'm a lazy ass, so whoever gonna live with me, beware!*