Pretty sure everyone goes through this at some points of their life, whether it is in the senior year of high school or university or even mid 20's or middle age. You will start wondering where your life is heading, uncertainties of the future, what to do for career, how to support myself, where is my Mr. Right, what do I want etc etc. I'm just speaking for myself here, I really do not like uncertainties, maybe because I am a control freak this way. But these uncertainties, not knowing really drove me crazy and I broke down. I was depressed and antisocial for about a week or two. I hated everything, I hated everyone and I was really unhappy. Yes, if I could lay my hand on a vase, I would throw it so hard, so damn hard.
But what can you do? Absolutely Nothing! Well, I mean you can't really turn the uncertainties into certainties but you can do other things. I went to get two new jobs although they are just volunteer job, I think that would make me happier, something to look forward to and to challenge my mind and intellectual, exciting and interesting. One more thing is keep up with my fitness goal, still haven't get rid of my kangaroo pouch. Must get rid of it by end of this year. Of coz, another thing I can do is to rant it out on my blog and forget all about it. teehee
I can never prevent this from coming so I should prepare myself for it. Make sure I am pretty and healthy and fit on my graduation end of the year. Reunion with my parents and maybe plan a trip back to my dear Bintulu hometown. I have been traveling to different places since the past years, but this time I would like to spend it with my family and friends who I have not see for a long long time, do some shopping, change my wardrobe with working clothes (need to donate my kiddy style shirts). Now that I turn it into an event I look forward to, instead of an event that mark the beginning of my blurry future, I felt much better and very much can't wait for it.
Of coz, there are better things to do or to keep me cheerful and motivated but the best one is this:
I seriously hate how he die so early in the GI Joe second movie. Who the f*ck is the writer that write him off so soon! I wanna see his moves in the movie! Oh well, I will wait for this to happen then....
Hahahaha, ok lovelies, good night.
2 comments:
How can you be depressed and not tell me? T___T All the best!
Aww, I know what it's like :( I felt that too when everyone is graduating and it seems that other people have found the "Mr. Right", and you feel like you'll die like a crazy cat lady :)
But those are temporary feelings, and once you find something to focus on, those feelings go away.
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