Graduate depression

Pretty sure everyone goes through this at some points of their life, whether it is in the senior year of high school or university or even mid 20's or middle age. You will start wondering where your life is heading, uncertainties of the future, what to do for career, how to support myself, where is my Mr. Right, what do I want etc etc. I'm just speaking for myself here, I really do not like uncertainties, maybe because I am a control freak this way. But these uncertainties, not knowing really drove me crazy and I broke down. I was depressed and antisocial for about a week or two. I hated everything, I hated everyone and I was really unhappy. Yes, if I could lay my hand on a vase, I would throw it so hard, so damn hard. 

But what can you do? Absolutely Nothing! Well, I mean you can't really turn the uncertainties into certainties but you can do other things. I went to get two new jobs although they are just volunteer job, I think that would make me happier, something to look forward to and to challenge my mind and intellectual, exciting and interesting. One more thing is keep up with my fitness goal, still haven't get rid of my kangaroo pouch. Must get rid of it by end of this year. Of coz, another thing I can do is to rant it out on my blog and forget all about it. teehee

I can never prevent this from coming so I should prepare myself for it. Make sure I am pretty and healthy and fit on my graduation end of the year. Reunion with my parents and maybe plan a trip back to my dear Bintulu hometown. I have been traveling to different places since the past years, but this time I would like to spend it with my family and friends who I have not see for a long long time, do some shopping, change my wardrobe with working clothes (need to donate my kiddy style shirts). Now that I turn it into an event I look forward to, instead of an event that mark the beginning of my blurry future, I felt much better and very much can't wait for it. 

Of coz, there are better things to do or to keep me cheerful and motivated but the best one is this:

I seriously hate how he die so early in the GI Joe second movie. Who the f*ck is the writer that write him off so soon! I wanna see his moves in the movie! Oh well, I will wait for this to happen then....

Hahahaha, ok lovelies, good night.

The last ball in my uni life? The Ball Without Honor

So the Japanese Student Association hosted this ball and the theme was mafia. I wasn't planning to go till this group of friends persuaded me to (most likely due to the bad ratio of girls to boys). I had fun but I think it could definitely be much better (of coz only if I am the organizer, they lacked new ideas!). Here are some photos with descriptions ( I have nothing better to do at the moment)...

 Me, Chopsticks manager and Lily.

Cherie, Me and Hannah. My besties in Dunedin.  

No, he wasn't my date although I wouldn't mind. He is Neil. 

Me, Manager, Alex(sitting), Winnie, Lily and Harry. These are the culprits who got me to go to the ball. Thank you all.   

 Me, Lily, Angel?, Yu. Not very close with the other two girls but friends of friends yay! I hate to admit, I think I have the best body! TAHAHAHAHHAHAHA. Just joking. No, not really. Or maybe. The high heels were killing me tho, couldn't hold the poses for more than 10 secs.

 Lily, Dunedin Jay Chou? LOL, Me. I was impressed, he wears headband everywhere he goes, never see an Asian guy does that before. ps. he is married, not my date.

Lily and Harry, they are couple and I am the mistress. I am kidding this time.

Lily, Xiao Ming?, Me. Yeah, he is in the friends group, yup, too many guys, too little girls.

Our favorite guy in the group, Alex. He is so cute and so funny. Again, he is not my date and he is taken. 

 Look at my arms! They are skinnier than before. Teehee. Yes, I did my own hairstyles, they were kinda spikey at the back, but I don't have a photo that shows it properly. oh well... I did my own make up too but it's not too obvious in the photos. 

Yup, this is the profile pic I had. Oh I bought the fur coat just for this ball. Do I look like a mafia lady boss? My friends teased me that I looked like the wife, fierce and powerful but have to share my husband with a young and slutty mistress. 

Of coz, I save the best sexiest for the last. HAHAHAHA. Close your eyes right now if you can't take it too long. Yes, be jealous of me. Look at the lips, people pay millions of dollars to make their lips to look like Angelina Jolie's but I born with it! 

Ok, that's all.