95 days left

95, the number of the day. my mum told me that they bought the air tickets and we are leaving in the early morning on July 3rd. My tickets are one-way tickets which means... i am not coming back to Qatar after i leave! OH MY! I guess i will be sad and happy on the same time. so not cool, urgh!

today after lunch, i was at the living room, craving for ice cream and guess what my dad said to me -'if you eat an ice cream, you have to do an hour of exercise! or you will turn into a pumpkin if you keep sitting on that sofa!' lol, how nice of my dad! well, i ate an ice cream...

but but but, i only had a yogurts for dinner, so i bet i will be fine, probably become a melon instead of a pumpkin. hahahaha!

Rain rain don't go away

it had been raining for the past few days, which were awesomely awesome! i LIKE! it made me feel like i am not at Qatar, but i missed the smell of grass after the rain.

this weekend had been quite useless for me, did nothing and had been quite depressed... i don't want to sound like a bitch but i actually miss being a bitch. lol. i am weird...

i have a strong feeling that there is something is missing in my life, what is it? and how can i get it back?

feeling weird

I have no idea why but i am feeling weird today.

I feel energyless, i feel breathless.

I want to scream, i want to run.

I want ice cream, i want chocolate.

I need dopamine, i need endorphin.



*atika, sorry, can't help you with your math, i don't feel strong enough to use my brain today*

Should i be worry?

my first exam is on the 19th of May and it is Biology, should i be worry and start working my ass off? i probably should but i can't be bother. Mr Grunwell gave us some past papers but i have no idea what to do and how to do so i just copied the answer from Roza. well, there are still time, you know~~

today i painted a portrait of Marianne for the first time since i started to model for her art. LOL, it turned out quite good except the eyes. she looked like someone just punched her eye. i should have take a photo of it. whenever i get one, i will upload it here. yes, be curious. (p.s. we laughed so much at it, gosh! although i am a bit embarrassed, i am kind of wanted to paint more.)

oh ya, my university applications, i planned to start it this week, but without my IELTS results, it seem impossible. well, at least i got my transcript half done with Mrs. Thompson.

I skipped psychology today, i know, i am so bad. but i don't want to go alone and i don't see the point of going to a lesson which i will be the only student. SCREW THAT! hahaha! *shhh* everything stay in this website, ok? this can be quite dangerous... what if the uni i am applying to, stalk me and read my blog? i will be so dead. oh no, and we going to get our report soon, i bet i will have quite a lot of absences. sh*t!

We, the YEAR 13 had been running the tuck shop for 3 days, the sales were quite good 2 days ago, but today's suck! and we had a movie day yesterday for the primary kids. OMG, that was crazy, so many kids came and they were craving for popcorn and ice cream! hmm... i wonder where the prom will be at, i doubt we can raise QR15000, so kiss goodbye the posh Doha Golf Club.

21.03.2009

yeap, the day i should remember for the rest of my life.

i did my IELTS, the most tiring exam i ever had! I don't want to have high expecttation over it, so i have no idea how it went. just hope that i will get the band i want.

went to Villaggio for lunch, ate 2 big scoop of Baskin Robins ice cream, yum yum!

went to Virgin Megastore because colin wanted to look at wii/psp, but my eyes were caught by this pretty book.

so i bought it, 81 riyals, i seriously think that i got rip off, but nevermind, it was the very FIRST book i bought for myself.

i'm so tired, im going to bed now, although it is not even 10pm yet.

good night.

dream came true

it always had been my childhood dream to have my own ipod and yes, it came true last friday. my dad bought me an ipod. reason: he thinks that he owns us a present since he and mum never really wanted to spend money on things that are not necessary. ok, it is time to move on to my next dream, my own laptop. i am hoping to get it when i go to uni. finger crossed.

atika been coming to my house for math, she is kinda clever but very very forgetful. well, bless her in her test. i tried my best and the rest is up to her to remember it.

tonight astronomy club? nah, i need to study for my freaking IELTS. but i am so can't be bother. why am i so lazy? omigosh, im ruining my life slowly and deadly.

today is my psychology buddy's birthday. Rizky Widodo, Happy 18th birthday. i hope you like the surprise party since you said no one did that to you before. and we are waiting for you to treat us.

wish me luck in my saturday's IELTS.

World Result Day? i guess so

what i mean by world result day? well, we got our A-Level result today and so do the Malaysia SPM students (my friends). they got it earlier than us, i heard it was bad for most of them. I don't know what should i tell them because i didn't do the exam.

for myself, it was ok-ish. 4 exams (1 biology, 2 math n 1 psychology) = 4B and 1C. as expected, my math C3 got a C. AAARRGGGGHHH. bodoh sekali! i thought i was ready for it so i didn't revise much, yeah, proven, i suck! for the other subjects, i am quite pleased with myself. but i know i can do better if i spend more efforts on them. OMG, i got so many Bs, i think i should go emo like jeihan did. oh no, he gonna kill me if he sees this. please don't tell him!

when i told my mum, her reactions :' wow, i didn't expect B from you, i was expecting C or D. i didn't see you study at all. you are the type of person who thinks that i had know enough and doesn't want to spend more time to study it! and you are lucky because you only got a C instead of C and D... blah blah blah... now you know what to do if you want to get A. STUDY!... blah blah

e-ve-ry-thi-ng

was thinking of graduation/leaving presents for my fellow friends, already had in mind what to give but don't know who to give to.

1. Roza
2. Celsy
3. Marianne
4. Supriya
5. Dika
6. Shahneela
7. Aeman
8. Rizky
9. Bella
10. Nadia
11. Rachel
12. Natasha
13. Atika
14. Rakia
15. Zahra

hmm, i think 15 people is more than enough. I'm sorry guys, not that I'm sexism, i just do not have enough budget to buy for everyone.

today i went to help out for the hotdog sale for the rugby tournament. well, was hoping to bump into any hot guys, but disappointed as usual although there was teams from Saudi. Most of the girls like the 'number 9 Manu-al' LOL. it was fun watching them playing, one of players got pulled down his pants, oppppsss! HAHAHAAH! the hotdog was a mess, i doubt that we can raise QR18,000 for our posh prom! but i don't want it to be at the school MPR or MPH again neither, that is just too sad! good luck, our prom!

oh no, results are coming out on the 12th which is next thursday. i'm doom! as you all knew, i screwed my c3 so yeah, probably i will get a C. hate it! and i am doing my IELTS in less than 3 weeks time. HOLY SHIT! my english writing and speaking are poor, how on earth i am gonna get my desired grade!

i should getting ready for my ass to be kicked by my mum and my ears to be flooded with my mum's lectures. argh. what a life!