Tadaaaaaa!

Probably no one cares but whatever, I am still alive and this is what's new in my life.

 

This is HP Pavilion dm4 Beats. I got this baby last month and I am loving it! It's red color back-lit keyboard allows me to type in the dark, how cool is that! But the thing is I have a room mate who is very sensitive to noise (movies, songs and youtube) so I haven't have the chance to blast up the Beats speaker and hear how awesome it can be.

Two weeks ago, I had friends visiting for 10 days and stayed in my house. One of them is Korean and she got me interested in learning Korean. I am serious, I texted in Korean, answered questions in Korean and wrote a whole page of Korean! Impressive huh? hahahahaa 나장난꾸러기!하하하! 배고파~~

Recently I starting to lose my appetite, it's so weird! And yesterday or the day before I figured it out!

Yup, it is the wisdom tooth! oh Great, at this time. It is coming out but one corner is rubbing on my cheek and I can't speak properly/fluently without a bit of pain. Oh serious, please, I don't want to get oral surgery! And this must be the reason I'm having sore throat. Why call it a wisdom tooth when it does not bring wisdom but pain and pain only!

In a week time, I will be sitting my final exams and yes I really know how to pick my times to blog. hahaha, isn't it amazing the way I set my priority? This is SO a procrastination! 

Okay, what's next! AHA, my holiday plan! As forever and ever, I shall try to lose some weight by going to badminton everyday (I totally doubt it) and work my ass off in chopsticks (I totally not looking forward to it). Oh, one more thing I can do, spam people and tell them my 21st birthday is coming soon and suck a present out of them. LOL. And possibly go to Christchurch for a few days, eat and sleep and hanging out. Ahhhh, I already looking forward to holiday when I haven't even start exam yet. 

By the way, pardon my previous emo post. It was one of those days. 

Okay, I think that is all with my life right now. 잘자 좋은꿈꿔 ♥

Egoistic

I can never understand why and how would someone be egoistic. You know, especially watching all those romantic movies, it gets into you. They made you believe that your boyfriend or husband or soulmate is going to be so madly in love with you, so romantic and etc. You will never expect egoism in your other half or even yourself. But then sometime things happen and it hits you! EGOISTIC!

Well, it hits me today. Not in someone else, but found it in myself. I always thought that I'm a pretty good, caring, loving person but then I realized that's not true. First of all, I don't understand how people can get so worked out or pissed off by someone else, it only make themselves miserable, so I don't do that, I forgive people easily because I don't want to make myself miserable. To be exact, I forgive others not because I sympathy with them when I actually really don't care how they feel as long as I am happy myself.

Secondly, people have sleepless night when they are utterly concern with things or people in their life. But it never happen to me. No matter how upset or angry or happy I am, I have no problem sleep through the night. I just feel like no one or nothing should get in my way of my sleep. WHOA. how egoistic is that!

So when it comes to loving another person, I expect him to love me more, only cling to him when I feel like to, ignore him when he needs me. GOSH! Not that I am afraid of commitment or attachment, I love myself too much. I like to find shortcoming in guys and dump them. Outwardly I may seen like a really nice person but I am totally doing things for my own pleasure. I hurt others to protect myself.

I guess if I end up forever alone, its not a big deal since now I know why. Well, maybe one day when I found someone I love more than I love myself, everything might change. For now, I think I better off single.