That funny moment when

Aha, never knew this would happen to me so soon! My mum was telling me about this guy in the church in Singapore. Following was her words "He is young and nice, tall and handsome, easy to get along with people no matter what age they are, very special and almost extinct nice Singaporean." Apparently my whole family really like him.

It started because the guy's father was asking my mum if she know any 20years old girls and my mum didn't realize the purpose of the question told him she has a 21years old daughter. Too bad I'm in New Zealand. I am truly curious who is this guy and how he looks like that my parents actually approve of him. My mum told me his name but too vague to Facebook stalk him. So I told my mum to get a photo and she said she will. How crazy is this?!

My mum keeps saying nothing is impossible with God, who knows but only God knows and she really wish someone will appreciate him coz he is very very nice! Instead of saying he is single and available, my mum said he is vacant! Oh my mummy!

To be honest, I am quite curious and keen to know him but unluckily I'm not going back to Singapore this year. Hopefully no one will get in there before me. I will keep you guys updated on this matter.

Quotes for thoughts

If you can’t love me now, don’t love me later because my later is much greater.
 
Giving second chance is like giving someone a second bullet after they missed the first one.
 
I thought you were my happy ever after, but you turned out to be my once upon a time.
 
If you left me without a reason, don’t come back with an excuse.
 
I don’t miss him, I miss who I thought he was.
 
When a man takes the risk to cheat, he is saying it's worth losing her. 
 
The person who brings out the best in you and make you strong, actually becomes your weakness.
 
You always said you would be the one to catch me when I fall, I never guessed you would be the one to push me.

 So what's your favorite quote(s)?

stress level ↑ pimples on the face ↑

I was experimenting this. Except from crazy chocolate indulgence, most of my food intake are low fat, low salt, and almost oil-free (i.e. steam or boil), but the pimples still sprouting like crazy on my face. The only conclusion is the stress from final exams.

I was so chilled and relaxed until the beginning of this week. The moment I started study, I started stressing, because then I realized how much I need to know and how much I do not know. @&#^!&^$#&@!$##^%#$@

Because of this stupid Statistic paper, all the Binomial, Poisson, Geometric, Gamma and Normal distribution, I lost my time to go to gym!!! BARRHFH! I hate it when I can't exercise, actually not really, I just slept in so much and I blame the weather for most of the day. 

I got a new glasses, purple one. My housemate told me that I actually look younger! YAY~

yup, this is a procrastination post so forgive me for the incoherent of the post. Bwahahah, I love you all

 

I am truly sorry

"When I truly care for someone, their mistakes never change my feelings because it's the mind that gets angry but the heart still cares."

Saw this on someone's Facebook. Isn't it great to know that there is someone out there who truly cares about you and will never let you go? It would be the best if you feel the same way toward him/her! But reality is cruel, you think you will be happy forever ever after; the next minute, your heart is shattered into pieces. Does that mean the heart doesn't care anymore or the mind overpowered the heart so much that the heart couldn't do anything?  My heart still cares about you but my mind is in the way.

I always had been the heartbreaker (except for once or twice), never really know the feeling of "your heart being torn into pieces and nothing could fix it". But when it comes to you, although I keep telling myself never ever hurt you in any way, there is always something that could got on your nerves, my nerves and I just couldn't go on with you anymore. I guess it's better for you to stay away from a neurotic and crazy person like me (and very high probability to end up in a mental facility) and find a normal girl and she will be your princess. Letting go of you so you and I, we both can be happier.

All the things we been through, all the memories we had and everything that were being shared among you and me, they are countless and they will never fail to remind me of you. Even though we never physically together, I'll never regret loving you. Because you gave me the best memories I could ever asked for. I don't see how I can ever forget about you. You will be my last relationship. My next one, it is going to be an arranged marriage that doesn't involve uncertainties, heartaches, disagreements, fights, jealousy and insecurity. All that I need to do is put my hand into his hand and walk down the aisle. Does it sound crazy to you? But I think it will work out better than me trying to find someone for myself and go all crazy again.

Was about to end this post by giving out some advice but I realized how bad I am with relationships and guys, so I'm just gonna shut up and let it be. But please know that life goes on whether you're happy or sad and life's much better when you're happy.

Bulimia?

I have a 25% 2000 words essay dues in 88 hours but I have no clue what I am going to write, only found like 3 articles that are sort of related and I am procrastinating right now.

I think I am starting to develop bulimia nervosa. Last week I started my diet, only eat half of the dinner I usually had and the half for lunch. I was really happy, because not only I am losing weight, I am saving money too. But then I realized, I have two days that I indulged like crazy and I felt like shit the next day and wanted to induce myself to vomit or exercise hard-out. Yesterday I caught up with a friend and she insisted to buy me lunch and she ordered a lot of food, I feel bad and happy on the same time, but still indulged. And today I am so seriously depressed. Every depressing things start popping up in my mind, I only felt a little better after I exercised and sauna, but I am still very disappointed with myself and I am thinking of whatever way to get all the food I ate yesterday out of my body. I'm thinking laxative drinks or whatever.

What have I got myself into. I thought I have found something I can do other than keep pounding on the thoughts of someone and the future. But now I got in too deep and I don't want to stop. All I can think of is lose weight, get fit, eat less, spend less, exercise, I'm so occupied with these till I can't be bother with my essay. This is obsession. But it's only been two weeks, nothing to be worried about, it's just temporary obsession, I will get over it, right? I do hope so.

Blogging during lecture!

Hahahahah, I guess everything has the first time. I always get bored in lecture but this is the first time I got so bored that I decided to blog!

Ok, let's update what is happening in my life right now.

First of all, I am going to United States at the end of the year!!! The traveling plan is stop by Fiji for two days, arrive in Los Angeles, 6 days in Anaheim and 1 week traveling around California state(I think), then will go to Mexico for 10 days then back to NZ, the whole trip is just almost one month. One thing I'm really proud is that I paid 40% of the trip. But I'm sad too b'coz my saving account is depleted. And I really hope that I will be granted the US visitor visa (need to spend more money flying to Auckland and application fees). BUT I AM TRULY EXCITED!

Secondly, I kinda have an emotion breakdown last Sunday. The most crazy roller-coaster I ever been on. Happy, excited, sad, disappointed, confused, angry, anxious; everything in a day. So I basically spent my day crying, screaming and laughing. Hahahha, it sounded crazy, doesn't it? No kidding, I did look crazy. My eyes were so sore and I was so dehydrated by the end of the day. Of coz, there were reasons for the breakdown. I was going through some difficulties in my relationship and my two close friends shocked me with their engagement. Yup, two totally unexpected engagement announced in 12 hours. But yesterday I was just angry at myself for not being able to handle things coolly as I expected myself to. Now that I'm calm, I am just thrilled for my friends for their engagements!

Thirdly, I took a badminton lesson on Saturday and my body/muscles ached for 3 days! Unbelievable! And there is another lesson next Saturday and it's going to be half an hour longer, I cannot imagine how it going to be like for the next few days after the lesson. But hopefully, I can lose some weights and be fit before my metabolism starting to slow down when I turn 25 in four years time.

Oh ya, birthday updates! I turned 21 two weeks ago and had a really great day(s). Tuesday 10th, I was blindfolded by my friends and walked around the town to get to a restaurant for dinner, got a homemade chocolate cake and Giorgio Armani perfume and body lotions as present and spent the night playing charade with a lot of laughters. Friday 13th, I and church friends went to Ashburton (another town for ski trip), my car arrived the latest and one of my friend did a really poor job trying to keep me outside, they surprised me with 16 pink cupcakes, Tiramisu, chocolate cake and apple custard cake, and of coz I spent the next day skiing which was an awesome experience. Oh wait, that wasn't it, my bestie, Hilda tried to called me at midnight to wish me happy birthday but the internet connection sucked so I only heard "hello" but really that was sweet and unique! and of coz not forgetting her present, pink iPad case. Celsy, another best friend of mine, sent me a present from Aussie, so touched. And I am still waiting for another one from Roza.

Thank you all, I really feel the love from you all. I am truly happy and grateful that I have you all as my friends. Sorry that there're no photo but I will upload them when I am free which is rarely. Ah, I really love you all!

Tadaaaaaa!

Probably no one cares but whatever, I am still alive and this is what's new in my life.

 

This is HP Pavilion dm4 Beats. I got this baby last month and I am loving it! It's red color back-lit keyboard allows me to type in the dark, how cool is that! But the thing is I have a room mate who is very sensitive to noise (movies, songs and youtube) so I haven't have the chance to blast up the Beats speaker and hear how awesome it can be.

Two weeks ago, I had friends visiting for 10 days and stayed in my house. One of them is Korean and she got me interested in learning Korean. I am serious, I texted in Korean, answered questions in Korean and wrote a whole page of Korean! Impressive huh? hahahahaa 나장난꾸러기!하하하! 배고파~~

Recently I starting to lose my appetite, it's so weird! And yesterday or the day before I figured it out!

Yup, it is the wisdom tooth! oh Great, at this time. It is coming out but one corner is rubbing on my cheek and I can't speak properly/fluently without a bit of pain. Oh serious, please, I don't want to get oral surgery! And this must be the reason I'm having sore throat. Why call it a wisdom tooth when it does not bring wisdom but pain and pain only!

In a week time, I will be sitting my final exams and yes I really know how to pick my times to blog. hahaha, isn't it amazing the way I set my priority? This is SO a procrastination! 

Okay, what's next! AHA, my holiday plan! As forever and ever, I shall try to lose some weight by going to badminton everyday (I totally doubt it) and work my ass off in chopsticks (I totally not looking forward to it). Oh, one more thing I can do, spam people and tell them my 21st birthday is coming soon and suck a present out of them. LOL. And possibly go to Christchurch for a few days, eat and sleep and hanging out. Ahhhh, I already looking forward to holiday when I haven't even start exam yet. 

By the way, pardon my previous emo post. It was one of those days. 

Okay, I think that is all with my life right now. 잘자 좋은꿈꿔 ♥

Egoistic

I can never understand why and how would someone be egoistic. You know, especially watching all those romantic movies, it gets into you. They made you believe that your boyfriend or husband or soulmate is going to be so madly in love with you, so romantic and etc. You will never expect egoism in your other half or even yourself. But then sometime things happen and it hits you! EGOISTIC!

Well, it hits me today. Not in someone else, but found it in myself. I always thought that I'm a pretty good, caring, loving person but then I realized that's not true. First of all, I don't understand how people can get so worked out or pissed off by someone else, it only make themselves miserable, so I don't do that, I forgive people easily because I don't want to make myself miserable. To be exact, I forgive others not because I sympathy with them when I actually really don't care how they feel as long as I am happy myself.

Secondly, people have sleepless night when they are utterly concern with things or people in their life. But it never happen to me. No matter how upset or angry or happy I am, I have no problem sleep through the night. I just feel like no one or nothing should get in my way of my sleep. WHOA. how egoistic is that!

So when it comes to loving another person, I expect him to love me more, only cling to him when I feel like to, ignore him when he needs me. GOSH! Not that I am afraid of commitment or attachment, I love myself too much. I like to find shortcoming in guys and dump them. Outwardly I may seen like a really nice person but I am totally doing things for my own pleasure. I hurt others to protect myself.

I guess if I end up forever alone, its not a big deal since now I know why. Well, maybe one day when I found someone I love more than I love myself, everything might change. For now, I think I better off single.

Too much a surprise

What the *&#$@! The trilogy of Hunger Game came in a parcel to me! Hard cover copies!!!!!! They are absolutely so pretty!

I have learned my lesson not to update my status on facebook with the things I want. Oh wait Maybe i should do it more often.

 The sender section on the parcel was empty. And who on earth knows my address?? I swear I do not give out my address to anyone other than those I am expecting to receive gifts from.

Aaaah, this is kind of creepy =_=

Who sent it? Confess now and I shall spare your life!

Another impulsive act

Not really impulsive when I already wanted it for years and I just found my gut to do it few days ago.